Disappointed...

Well, I just got the call from SVSU. They deciced to pursue another candidate. If this other candidate's background check doesn't check out/they decide not to take the position, then I might get a call from them. I'm holding my breath on that one.

Delphi is still in. I'm glad I went to college for five years to work in the shop.

I really need a drink...

I'm Beginning To See The Light

Taken from "The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock"
By: T. S. Eliot

I grow old … I grow old …
I shall wear the bottoms of my trousers rolled.

Shall I part my hair behind? Do I dare to eat a peach?
I shall wear white flannel trousers, and walk upon the beach.
I have heard the mermaids singing, each to each.

I do not think that they will sing to me.

I have seen them riding seaward on the waves
Combing the white hair of the waves blown back
When the wind blows the water white and black.

We have lingered in the chambers of the sea
By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown
Till human voices wake us, and we drown.

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Well, I'm all atwitter right now, wondering what is going to happen with the job at SVSU. I am supposed to hear from them either today or tomorrow, and I have been on pins and needles since the interview, wondering what is going to happen. The interview went really well, and they were very kind and fun people. I feel confident that I gave the very best interview I could possibly give, and I have confidence that I am a strong contender for the job. However, I am nervous as to what they will finally decide. I seem to have bad luck, and I'm worried that something happened and they will go with another of the final candidates. I'll be able to sleep a lot better once I know for sure.

I also got a call from Delphi yesterday, and I had an interview/drug test this morning. They are likely to hire me within the next three weeks, and the interviewer is recommending me for a management program, as I have management experience and a college degree. So, hopefully, if the job doesn't work out at SVSU, I should have something to fall back on until something else comes through. Also, there are a few other openings at SVSU that I am going to put in for, so hopefully I will be working again within a few weeks. I'm excited, because I am getting bored and frustrated with all the sitting at home. I'm not used to having nothing to do.

Anyways, that's the update for right now. I'll try to update again later, when I know something to report.

Why Do I Do This To Myself?

Over My Head
By: The Fray

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
You find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows
She's on your mind

Everone knows I'm in
Over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm over my

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

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I always end up falling for the wrong people. I hate that about myself. I wish that I could either just meet someone I stand a chance with, and who might be interested in me, or that I would just stop meeting people that make me feel like this. I don't care which, I just don't want to feel like this anymore.

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Saginaw Valley called. I have an interview on June 21. Wish me luck.

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I'm going to crawl back in bed for a while. It's warm and safe there.