Exhausted, Yet Awake

From "Don't Fence Me In"
As Performed By Ella Fitzgerald

Oh, give me land, lots of land under starry skies above,
Don't fence me in.
Let me ride through the wide open country that I love,
Don't fence me in.
Let me be by myself in the evenin' breeze,
Listen to the murmur of the cottonwood trees,
Send me off forever but I ask you please,
Don't fence me in.

Just turn me loose, let me straddle my old saddle
Underneath the western skies.
On my Cayuse, let me wander over yonder
Till I see the mountains rise.

I want to ride to the ridge where the west commences,
Gaze at the moon till I lose my senses
I can't look at hobbles and I can't stand fences
Don't fence me in.

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There is so much going on in my life right now, I feel trapped and without any choices. Just when I think that things are about to go my way, something else comes up, and I am being pulled in another direction. I don't remember things being like this when I was working.

I can't sleep at night anymore. Whenever I try to go to bed at a decent time, something keeps me up, and I either find something that I HAVE to see on TV, or I'm out with someone, or I have company, or I just crawl into bed and lie awake for hours. I'm really not a fan of it. I end up falling asleep close to dawn, and sleeping until early afternoon. I've never had this happen before; I am used to getting to bed at a somewhat decent time, and getting up at a somewhat decent time (i.e. morning). I just can't seem to shake this routine I've fallen into.

Things will get better...


...I hope.