The Heart of Life

"The Heart of Life"
By John Mayer

I hate to see you cry
Lying there in that position
There's things you need to hear
So turn off your tears and listen

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No, It won't all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is good

You know it's nothing new
Bad news never had good timing
But then the circle of your friends
Will defend the silver lining

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No, it won't all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is good

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
Fear is a friend who's misunderstood
But I know the heart of life is good

I know it's good

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Well, it's been a month since I wrote, so I guess I should update everyone about what's going on. I'm still living with Harold and Sue, and I am ready to shoot myself. The kids are a pain and want to hang all over me all the time, and now I am starting to get upset with Harold and Sue. I think that I'm just not used to living with other people, since I lived alone for so long.

I found out the other day that the job as a substance abuse counselor fell through. They were extremely interested, but according to their contract with the state, any professional employee directly involved with patient care must hold a master's level degree. Unfortunately, I don't have a master's degree (yet), so I'm not eligible for the job. Poo on that. There are a few others I am interested in, and I am also looking at options in other areas. Melissa wants me to come live with her in Dayton and work on a master's degree at the University of Dayton, which I am thinking about. Also, Brent and Michele want me to come stay with them in Kansas City and look for work. I've also had an offer from Wanda to move with her to San Diego if she gets the job at the Hotel del Coronado and find work in California, but I am not sure what I want to do yet. I really would just like to win the lottery, and be able to write full-time. Maybe if I ever get around to finishing my book, I can find a publisher that will pay a lot of money for it, and I can live off the royalties for the rest of my life. Hahaha. Another dream...

I've been in a really bad mood for the past few days, because I am really homesick. I miss my mom and dad, and all of my friends in Flint. I never thought I would be homesick for Flint, but it happened when I wasn't looking. I wish there were some way I could come home and make a good living, but the job market just isn't looking that positive right now. I guess I'll just have to tough it out in Florida. I'm really jealous, though: I guess it has been really cold and snowy in Michigan, and I wish I could be there. I know, I know, the weather in Florida is really nice, but I like to live somewhere that has 4 seasons. We only have 2 in South Florida: Really Hot and Not Quite as Hot. I miss the cold...

I've been working diligently on my writing for Cathy's class, and it is coming along quite nicely. I hope to have it all done by the beginning of March, and to have the reading done by the beginning of April. It is time for me to buckle down and finish up with these classes.

Well, there's not much more for me to write about right now, but I'm sure I'll update again soon. Hopefully, it won't take another month for me to get something in here.

Feel free to drop me an e-mail: supermatty1982@gmail.com